Back when I used to actually watch The Simpsons, there was an episode where Homer went on a diet. What resulted was utter chaos.
The doughnut company was all in a panic because they weren't selling doughnuts anymore, Homer was their biggest customer.
The convenience store was hurting because Homer wasn't coming in to buy those doughnuts from them. Those two facts may be blurred a bit by time but that was what I took from the episode.
That all leads me to the reason I've made Wendy frown on the classic version of Wendy's logo.
Tonight for only I believe the second time in about three or four months I went through the drive through at my local Wendy's.
The first time they said something to the affect of "Where have you been? We've missed you!". The second time, tonight, they basically were like "Um, why aren't you coming by and eating here anymore?" When I told them that it was due to my dietary changes, they basically blew me off and didn't even offer a "Great job, or good luck with that!". I guess I shouldn't be surprised.
Most businesses are all about making money, and when their customers tell them they aren't going to be coming by much anymore I guess their reaction is to kick you to the curb and keep it moving. Sad to say I thought the guy was actually pretty nice to me, but I guess he was just buttering me up all along to get some money out of me. Maybe I'm being harsh, but that's the way it feels.
I don't hate Wendy's, obviously I still like the place or I wouldn't have patronized them tonight. But it was kind of one of those lines in the sand.
Sure I enjoy a splurge every now and then on the diet, but I refuse to go back to the guy I used to be who went to Wendy's almost weekly and got cheese fries, oh yeah and another order of them too. Yes, that's right I would get two orders of cheese fries each time.
We've all got our weaknesses, mine has never been alcohol or drugs, but mine has always been food. Food isn't evil, food can't be demonized like alcohol or drugs and you need it to survive.
But finding a balance in what I consume is still a struggle some days.
It's easy to tell myself I can make up the difference on my two fasting days, but that's the exact thing that got me to three hundred pounds - compromise. Compromise once in a while is fine, but when its every day, every week, month after month it all starts to add pounds and add up.
I know very few people read this blog and that is fine, but if anyone does actually read along I hope that you'll be encouraged by my struggles.
Yes I've had great success this year, but I'm still very human and can easily fall off the wagon. I hope that doesn't happen, I'm very focused and determined that I will not go back where I've came from.
But as I was reminded watching the first season of House of Cards, it only takes one step in the wrong direction and your whole world can fall apart.
Thank the Lord for his grace and mercy, he keeps me from many blunders, but I also have a big part in this transformation. I've got to reach out for help when I need it, I've got to kick my butt when I need to and I've also got to really celebrate and be content with how far I've come.
Wherever this post finds you, I hope it finds you well. If it doesn't I hope you'll come along with me on this journey and we'll both be better for it. Now that's better!
Until next time...
